Death

Do you ever wonder if there is just a void after death.. So many people we love just die no warning no reasons. And does death always come is threes.. if so it leaves me wondering who is next. Lost my step dad Dec 17 and now his good friend on the 28 of Jan.. it has me thinking about what happened next do we go see our lived ones again or are they just gone forever.

Done

I am so done helping I try and try and get know where so if you don't want to be apart of this save me from all this stress. I cant take this any more. I tell you how I feel then u get mad like WTF im not allowed to have feelings.. Guess not!!!!!

New

Today I was up with the feeling of I need something new. Everyday feels the same get up clean, work , and then sleep to start the same day over again. The never ending day of stress while struggling to survive. Half of my friend are still parting like they are 21. The other have are so involved with them selves they have no time to talk or give advice anymore. So I find my self walking down this path alone. I have so many plans and way to try and make this work but even that seems to go no where. My finance pays child support for three children so his income is less than $500 an month. in a world where bills are so expensive it just isn't enough and I'm tired of fighting. There is always so much to so around the house and its left to mostly me. I'm the only person in this house who works full time i pay most of the bills and I cant even have one day with out picking up after someone. So here I am venting on a blog nobody follows or reads so I guess its like my own personal diary.. ENTER IF YOU DARE.....